I'm trying to figure out what witty way to weave my random update.
its odd because i think the sudden life sobriety, the lack of nicotine, the rhinoplasty, and burning eyeballs, and the love of a good woman have distilled my brain into a water/oil concoction of bliss and fortune so strong i can almost touch it.
so where does this all leave me? how does my sudden clarity of life bring me closer to the mountaintop i have chased for too many years? is this just another false path i have started down?
the doubts follow one step behind. a life of wearing my heart on my sleeve has left me tired of throwing all them chicks in one basket. at 28 and im a bitter old man yelling gad dummit at life on my lawn.
the funny thing is, none of this seems the same. its a pure, driven feeling that is unlike anything i have ever dealt with. its like taking a deep breath of cold, winter air. a biting, shimmering draw so brisk you can taste the ice on it. so strong you feel it in your toes.
i dont know how to take it